February 2009
crazy boy.
katipaterson:
craig baker took me snowboarding, but i was hungover and tired. and just like FUCK LIFE.
so i left with marney when she got off work, i was scared i was gonna miss her though cause i had to go with craig to get DIRTY PETER PAUL. but apparantly the time on my watch is way off.
BUT! i got new liquid eyeliner.
unplanned party here… a fucking gain.
im getting kinda shit of this...
January 2009
my cat kind of
just kicked me out of my own room. everywhere i go in this house there are animals making disgusting i’m licking my genitals sounds and it just makes me want to rip off my fucking ears.
i feel like
staying homee. i hate it :(
Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid...
i can't talk
& i feel like someone is scraping my throat with knivess. GREEAAAT.
i think
i’m going to try homeschooling and get a job and do more of what i want to do and stop wasting my time at school doing nothing. this is my life.
this week i have to
make biscotti and mixed cd’s, and god damnit i need to take pictures.
I have never
jenb:
wanted to die so bad in my entire life.
i don’t know if you hate me or something, but i’m really sorry, and if nothing else you need to be there for taylor. there are tons of people who care about you and will help you get through this, people are inherently good. i know that everyone says this and at times you really can’t believe it but things will get better, even if...
i'm so scared
:(
icing on the cake
my ipod just stopped working. nice.
:)
going to the pallisades with tom ferm dom and haliee i think? to see johnny :) :) tumbl laterr, but i don’t like the changes either!
...
“i guess you’re lucky, because i’m generally not friends with athiests”
that REALLY floored me. i mean, for obvious reasons. discrimination is discrimination. i don’t want to get into a religious discussion on here because i know the majority of people who follow me believe in something but really. ;laskdjf.
everything
jenb:
just crashed down.
and now i know the meaning of life,
and never again will i take advantage of the ones i love.
rest in peace. ilylarry.
i just heard about this, and it’s so heartbreaking. i feel so bad for taylor and miranda and all his family and friends :/ i really don’t know what else to say
Nick & Norah's Infinite playlist, the book quote:
sunnieshinexcore:
“All of the songs I wrote in my head were for her and now I can’t stop them from playing. This null soundtrack. I’m tired, she’d said and I told her that I was tired too, and I wanted to take some time for us. And then she’d said No I’m tired of you. And I slipped into the surreal-but-true universe where we were over but I wasn’t over it. She was no longer any kind of here I...
You treat me like such
sunnieshinexcore:
Shit sometimes.
& Being depressed isn’t always going to work as an excuse.
Yeah, it hurts, yeah it makes me want to cry.
But I’m also fucking pissed. I’m not playing these games & Your not walking all over me. Not anymore.
i understand this to an extent although i obviously don’t completely. <3 i hope they straighten out their act :)
LOL DADD
“if you have an emergency you can always call dingbat, she’s up at the house, she probably won’t really be of any help but she will answer the phone” hahahahaha
a few hours, needles, and tests laterr
i still don’t know what’s wrong with mee. this blows, but at least all my vitals and everything were normal. especially my white blood cell count, seeing as hypo me is always effing worried about getting luekemia (sp?). but the headache, lightneadedness, dizziness, floaty, heart fluttery, thought cutting stuff won’t go away no mattter what i do.
i'm not used to
my dad and becky’s coffeeee, asd;ljfa;lsjdfiejal;skjdflajkfkjsdf.
i really need to stop
procrastinating packing by playing isketchh. intensity! and i need to do laundry :/. going away till sunday i think? i can’t remember whether or not i have servicee in old forgee, but it should be fun. making good on my one of my resolutions and alll :]
i hate never sleeping
plus, i need to sleep because i think i’m getting sick, i keep getting dizzy spells and really bad blurred vision and headaches. it’s really weird. :/
1:46 a.m. and i am not sleeping again
playing cubefield and failing dismallllly. brain won’t stopp. too hot in my room, to cold in my room. thirsty, have to pee. want to talk to someone, don’t want to talk to you.
woooooooot. i’m in a pretty good mood though. just damn sleepy.
no one appreciates the little things in life
apains:
like BOP-IT
i’m the one who wants a bop it.
way to give me credit bitch
new years resolutions
micheledaboul:
talk to someone more :]
get on prom court
go out more. ignore my mom.
actually get my license..
make new friends
lol yeah meech you conquer that fear of driving!
i’m having a breakthrough
i hate fake peoplee
so much! like what’s the point of lying all the time? it makes NO sense.
stop trying to make me pity you
ALL THE FUCKING TIME.
i wish
that i could have slept forever last night. best dream in the entire world, that i have ever, ever, ever had. i seriously want to cry.
happpy new yearrr
first time in fiiiive months hell yeahh!<3
love natalie and brianaa<3!
MP!