you haven’t answered me on facebook so i will try here.
tonight was ridiculous
abandonment, total awkwardness, anxiety attack, drunk drunk drunk becky to take care of. she’s actually currently hollering for me but i’ve already when out to tend to her six times since i got into bed. i’m so fucking tired. she spilled her water. she spilled an entire box of nuts on the floor. the first time i went out there she was lying on the kitchen floor laughing so hard...
i have four documents open
with attempts at starting my college essay. doc 1-a rant to get me started on something that just went sour doc 2-the importance of being alone vs loneliness and how it applies to myself because i’m crazy and have those periods of time where i force myself to be alone doc 3-why i fucked up in high school/detest the public school system and am looking for a college that is drastically...
i’m really excited to go pick up meech from bing tomorrow with my halie. it’s gorgeous outside. i’m sitting my bed surrounded by books full of high school bullshit that i’ll never have to deal with after this year is through. graduation isn’t THAT far away. i’ll stop stressing about college so much, start doing. thanksgiving is coming and i hope i get to spend...
i am having the worst fucking day
i have begun to fill out my common app about six times today, only to have my internet shit out and lose all of it. i got my sat scores and they’re absolute shit and they make me want to jump off of a fucking bridge. i immediately registered to take them in december but what’s the point anyways? with a month to study it’s not like they’re going to improve much, plus...
dear common app,
i hate you. i really fucking hate you. why won’t you work with chrome? explorer unexpectedly crashes all the time and since my laptop is busted and i’m on my moms i can’t download firefox because she will then call the wambulance and tell me that i’m infesting her computer with viruses. you suck.
politics are fucking complicated.
epiphany-naivety. journal about it.
i just want
a little something on the side. for realz. i don’t even want anything serious because i can barely handle myself but like damn.
You have to learn the rules of the game. And then...
OH GOD WHO DID THIS
i am so fucking tired.
one thing i resent my mom for
knowing about bard and not sending me there after sophmore year~
on a real note tho
i got to spend some time with my babygirl today, which was lovely. some parts not so much but at least we’re working on it. now i’m giving myself an hour to lounge before i do my resume and some college stuff. LIVING THE LIFE~
way to be a bitch.
take me now.
i’m making a drunk becky food and having a few glasses of wine for myself and then i am snuggling up with an episode of skins on and sleeping for what i hope is no less than ten hours.
fuckyeahsweetmusic: My Girl Gotta Girlfriend /...
sometimes i wish
you were still a part of my life to facilitate my sexual needs. that was one good thing, there was no need to skirt around it, it was just known.
it’s ignore the shit out of clare day. to be honest it kind of fucking sucks, but whatever, fuck you guys. off to work super late cause along with shitty friends i also have a selfish sister.
this is bad news.
i had a nice time with halie, andith, fermsta and dac. mmm. skins and sleep. gym, work, sleep.
crmurdock: clarebabs: i can’t wait for you to come homee, hopefully i get to see you for more than like an hour </3. are you coming home the same weekend cock is coming home? why dont you love me anymore I DO YOU JUST DON’T TALK TO ME :(
i can’t wait for you to come homee, hopefully i get to see you for more than like an hour </3. are you coming home the same weekend cock is coming home?
lol this little voice in my head tries to trick me
halieann: into thinking i’m not a last priority friend sometimes DUN EVEN PLAY >:o
the-delusions: hey i like grocery shopping with you i like going out to eat late at night with you visiting balto with you, even though i haven’t lately nomnoms orangejuice and baking with you and obviously only you i like being naked or mostly naked with you no, i love being naked or mostly naked with you no. no. I love doing all of these things with you. and I love you. I fucking love...
halieann: madeinthedark: First Look: MTV US version SKINS eye spy a purple nirvana shirt methinks. I GUESS THAT MAKES THIS BULLSHIT OKAY.. this is god awful. the fact that i’m rewatching gen 1 season 1 right now makes it even worse. it’s a british tv show for a reason, because it works in that setting, not here, in fucking baltimore. a;slkdfj. ugh.
The DVD ending and the menu looping over and over...
you can fuck yourself too.
i get it, i get that i’m going to fucking fail at life so why should i even try? really though i’m sort of smart for someone ‘round these here parts’ but in the big scheme of things i’m a fucking dumbass. i fucked up so badly and there’s no way to rectify it. i’m never ever going to get into college, i’m sure i did awful on my sats. i just generally...
you’re such a fucking bitch and i hate you i hate you i hate you.
my resume will be pretty
swagonlock: sleeping naked