this week is going to suck also?
starving vs. getting out of bed
the hardest question lately~
when will the life i'm living feel mine?
if i succumb to this it will surely swallow me...
we must bring our own light to the darkness. nobody is going to do it for...– Charles Bukowki - Septuagenarian Stew (via henrycharlesbukowski)
i just want
to feel better. i’m really no good at being sick. i’m just supposed to lay here and drink tea and stay hydrated and stuff right? cause i’m bored and i wanna go out and WAH. i think i’ll give it another hour then try and venture to panera to get myself some take out and then crawl back up to my room to eat it.
i’m so sick. i’m like coughing up my lungs, whole body aches, can’t really breathe, head feels stuffed with cotton sick. to top all that off i obviously can’t go out tonight because i can barely get out of bed without wanting to die. i’m sick, homesick, swamped with work, and unable to destress and go crazy this weekend. also meech and cheyanne are together so like...
novonneguts-noglory: always sort of jealous of people in stable, functioning relationships.
today has been so fucking weird
i’m so sick right now it’s unreal. i felt shitty last night, shittier this morning, and then over the course of a few hours i basically feel like i have the flu or bronchitis or some other serious shit. i’m so upset because a. i have so much work to do and i can barely breathe let alone concentrate, and b. i worked hard this week so i could play hard this weekend and if i’m...
really sad last night at around 3 am. i curled my body away from his and cried quietly because there is so much injustice in the world. there is so much sadness, so much greed, so much ignorance. sometimes it all crashes down on me and i just want to help and i do not know how to do that and the weight of it all is crushing and there are children starving and i am sitting in my bed with my fancy...
Can I tell you the secret, the secret to being the kind of person you want to...– Emily Haines (via likeloveadore)
completely unorganized rant~
i think i’m straying from the point. i think i’m straying from the point and i don’t know what the point is. i care so much about the people around me and i try to care about the world at large. i am so self righteous lately it’s ridiculous. i lash out constantly, and sometimes i’m really nasty about it. i can’t help it. i hate being around such close minded...
my throat hurts
i’m going to quit smoking because i hate not being able to breathe. also i’m legitimately too broke to continue smoking, at least as much as i have been. i woke up this morning, went to class, then took a four hour nap that i just woke up from. i feel so fucking weird.
some days i want to abandon society and live in the woods, or settle down and have a family. never a suburban housewife, but maybe a mother who would do anything for her children. other days i want to dance all night, never know where i’m sleeping, have hot, anonymous sex. sometimes i want to find my soul mate and hibernate together, learning each others secrets until we can’t figure...
i’m being so good right now. i got a phone call that was like come out we’re at a great party woooooo come kill our left over wine from this weekend! i’m staying in bed though guys i’m going to sleep so i can be a real person tomorrow and not sleep until 4pm, whaddup.
"Only God can judge me."
kaitmpayne: False. I’m judging you right this very instant.
it is so fucking cold in the library right now. third floor my own little corner of the world but it is the god damn arctic. i want to go have a cigarette break but i have to get this oceanography worksheet done first. literally taking me 15 minutes to do each of these fucking profiles by hand because i am excel retarded. after this i still have to do paper proposals for three different papers and...
I JUST GET SO RANDOMLY SAD OMG I MISS MY NIECES SO FUCKING MUCH. FOR REALZ. AND MY MOM TOO AND EVEN MY DAD AND NOT HIS GIRLFRIEND BUT STILL, AND MY SISTER AND UGH EVERYONE.
30 Day Challenge! Day 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is. Day 02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years. Day 03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol. Day 04 - Your views on religion. Day 05 - Have you ever lost a best friend? Day 06 - Write 30 interesting facts about yourself. Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality. Day 08 - A...
Day 1-Your current relationship, if single discuss...
i’m currently seeing someone, but it’s not serious. it’s nice having someone be there but not having the responsibilities that come along with having a relationship. honestly, i dont’ think i could handle a relationship right now unless i was like head over heels in love with the guy. i’m kind of just chillin, what happens happens.
prolly shouldn’t drink myself into door open, hoodie trances but then again...– polilla fea. ugly little moth. (via polillafea)
not even my parents will come visit me. fermey just told me he was teasing, he’s obviously never coming and he was my only hope. i’ve had to watch people galavanting around with people they love all day and it’s literally killing me. i just want to curl up in bed and sleep forever because i miss my family, my friends, and my home. i just want to see a fucking familiar face....
i’m so fucking lonely right now it’s actually ridiculous. the few people that i hang out with all the time have family here for family weekend and my roommate is at a comic convention. i’ve been seeing people reunited with their parents/siblings/friends all day and it’s really taking a toll on me. i would fucking kill to see a familiar face.
the sweetest voicemail from domi where she talked about how she wished she could come crawl into my bed back home and we could be annoyingly vapid and bitch to each other while we cuddle and watch misfits. her and fermey have both brought me tears today just by the mere thought of seeing them.
i don’t even know if i’ve had a night that was this high school when i was actually in high school. i love that i don’t give a fuck. i know what i like and what i want and i will not take being disrespected. no i don’t want you to walk me home after you storm out and slam the door because i didn’t feel like having sex while four of your friends were hooting and...
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novonneguts-noglory: rapscallions: settingforthintheuniverse: joetheblogger: ica-woooood: 1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? 2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now? 3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time? 4. Would you ever smile at a stranger? 5. Is there someone mad because you’re...
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