taking a bit of a hiatus from tumblr, but i just need to get some stuff out. everything seems so surreal right now. i’m at my own house for the first time in a while, and this summer is quickly melting away. it’s getting darker earlier, and i’m going to have to say goodbye to more of my friends soon. i don’t like the thought of that at all. there is not enough time in my...
Joan talks to me more than my own Dad talks to me. I never see my Mom for more than five minutes, and I haven’t talked to my sister in weeks. I feel like I have no family.
Michele/Cheyanne/whoever I'm awake, it's sunny,...
i hate that i sometimes forget
how fucking crazy i am, that i can go from okay to full blown batshit in twenty seconds flat.
went to costas with kt and kim today, it was lovely. right now it’s barely ten and i’m beyond exhausted. i’m getting eaten alive because since my brothers home he thought it was fine to open the one window that has no screen and leave the light on right in front of it.. OH ITS FINE. i have a bangin headache and i wish dominique weren’t working because we were supposed to go...
absolutely no way
i’m finishing going through all the tumbls i missed on my three day hiatus. i’m tired. i’m horny. i’m glad i don’t have to work tomorrow. it’s hot and i miss my ac. i’m in a perpetual state of worry. i’m really happy though. i just live the life of being 1239487 percent conflicted all the time. uhuh mhm.
my brother is home for one of the three times in a...
which means i have to wear clothes, in my own home, what even.
i wish i had time to catch up on tumblr, but i...
i need to be asleep right now but instead i’m waiting for my pore strips to dry and my laundry to spin. went to jersey with halie to see poot and chill at her brothers empty mcmansion, it was really fun. we went to the beach today, and i forgot how much i absolutely love the ocean. i wasn’t initially that excited for ocean pines but now i’m completely stoked. i like my new job a...
I’m a little pink from nudie sun bathing all morning which is making it hard to sleep. I love my new job so much, it’s just a really pleasant place to work :). This week is so packed it’s insane. Tomorrow I’m going to jersey to stay the night with Emily, I’m coming home Wednesday night. Thursday is warped/Harry potter. Friday I work lunch. Saturday is Janelles party...
There is no reason for everything to be so fucking complicated. No reason for lying, and stupid secrets. So many reasons for forgiveness.
I wish I was freshly 16 again. Sneaking out on school nights to crawl into your bed. Still some of the best nights of my life.
I love cocoa butter oil. It seriously is the secret to being SO soft, it’s wonderful. I need to get more dresses seeing as I’ve become obsessed with my $3 forever 21 strapless dress and have taken to wearing it nearly every day. I cleaned my car today and I have to vaccum it and then it will be perfect again :). I talked to Becky today and there were painful silences, I wish...
I mourned you for so long that it doesn’t even seem real anymore. I’m drunk enough to know that missing you is the most real emotion I’ve ever felt. I want to wrap you in my arms right now. So close geographically but a million miles apart in heart.
So fucki g drunk whyyyyyyyyyyyyuuuuuuuuu
Jason Derulo– Jason Derulo (via hannahcolwell)
Monthly I really miss my big sister post~
Nakey sun baking. But seriously misquotoes please die nao.
So I was laying in ferms bed yesterday wrapped in his comforter because it was -38373 in there and I had just went swimming. I was deliriously tires, giggling and telling him about getting a new job and such. He said the typical things like he was happy for me etc. Then he was silent for a while, started laughing and was like oh god, so I responded with “what? What’s so funny!?”...
: Girls and guys aren't so different. →
embrace-: From experience and observation, I’ve noticed that one subtle difference is consistency. When girls get cheated on or fucked over, they recover to the point where they give love another, trusting chance with the hopes the next guy will prove all of the previous ones wrong. When guys get… So fucking true.
I wish I was Clare and had her life as of right...
Work with the smartest people you can find, do something you’re not ready to do,...– Marissa Mayer, Senior Executive at Google and the company’s first female engineer from a Huffington Post article. I love that part, do something you’re not ready to do. (via chealsye)
embrace-: No matter what you’ve been through, no matter what you’re into, no matter what you see when you look outside your window: Brown grass or green grass, picket fence or barbed wire, never, ever put them down, you just raise your arms higher. Raise em till your arms tire, let ‘em know you’re here, that you’re struggling, surviving, that you gon’ persevere.
I feel like this is the summer of the sad. Good things need to start happening for everyone. This introverted sad lonely shit that’s going on is just not good.
Why does my brain do that? Terribly vivid dreams. Woke up missing you like you broke my heart last week instead of forever ago. Dreams of dressing rooms hurried hands and hot mouths that seemed more real than my reality. Weird morning.
My head is itchy and I’m having cuddle time with cheyanne which is lovely. I really hope tomorrow pans out to be a good day. I will get so drunk. I have a bottle that needs to be tended to :).
I really want to get drunk.
I’m down if you wanna drink tonight boobearr
I hadn’t drank in so Lin thank god for autocorrect. I’m sleeps but I hat e ehe. My Mona not here because I dkntdreel safes being alone. Oh fos this is incoheren. :(
I want amazing July 4th plans to fall into my lap.
i just really want to have sex.
lesbiangypsy: therealspiderman: hours of hard, rough, passionate sex. Hours&hours&hours
My bed is wonderful right now. Naked with blankets and a fan is a glorious thing. Tomorrow is a day for productivity and then relaxing. I applied at so many places today it’s actually absurd. I love cockwallace and his sarcastic hilarity. The only thing that could make right now better is company and a projector so I can watch movies on my ceiling, yes. I better get hired soon because I want...
Day 5-Things You'd Like to say to an Ex
Never treat your daughter like you treated your women, and when she’s older don’t let her near anyone like you. Go back to school, you have so much untapped potential. Stop using people, your life will be more fulfilling. Also, if you haven’t changed at all you’re a complete piece of shot and I hope that cps takes your daughter away and she can live with someone capable of...
Day 4-Bullet your day
• Wake up from weird nightmare crying. • Go back to sleep until 11 • Get up and take Roxy for a walk • Make myself a fake blt for brunch • Watch the end of stolen and be completely apalled/want to go hug the crap out of my niece in case something awful were to happen to her. • later I’m doing more job hunting in narrowsburgh and white lake, • hopefully getting incredibly drunk